I am feeling the urge to withdraw a lot lately. I just want to be at home, quietly sitting waiting. I have been having some fears that my little baby isn't okay. I am sure it's just last minute nerves. I wish there was some way of being reassured, but all we can do is wait till he's here. The scan showed no abnormalities but they can't be a hundred percent sure of anything. Please just be okay little bubby. Any cares or thoughts I had about him being another boy have completely gone, I couldn't care less about that anymore. I just want my little bloke here, safely. Maybe this is Mother Nature's way of making sure things are completely in perspective for me? She's so clever, she never ceases to amaze me. I think I would prefer just to know so I can relax and enjoy the last few days though! I haven't been able to sleep or eat properly. My mind just churns. Please just arrive safely my beautiful boy, and be healthy and normal. I love you so much and want you to have a wonderful life.

The bedroom is painted, it looks fantastic, I love it. The pool is clean and we have been swimming in it. The weather has been utterly disgustingly hot, 40 degrees today and supposed to be hotter tomorrow. I have been sitting in our bedroom in the air conditioning. It's hard to get comfortable so I haven't been knitting much, I miss it! I have tried but can't do many rows before my back starts to ache, it doesn't matter how I sit or arrange the pillows.