I have been doing a bit of applique this week. Baden and I designed the top one, its supposed to be a dinosaur but ended up looking like a turtle, and the bottom one is actually a turtle.

Now, what was the last post all about then. Well, I got a job, and I wasn't really looking forward to it all that much, every time I thought about it I would feel quite depressed. It just seemed boring and I just thought it was a bit junior for me, and anyway, I lasted three days. It was boring and way too junior for me but mostly it was the boring bit that got me. I hate being bored. The first day was exhausting, the day just dragged. The second day was slightly better, but not much. The third day was full of messages from the universe, all the stars aligned to lead to the point of me knowing that I needed to be elsewhere.

The lesson that I thought I was learning that I think I have realised already is that I need to keep studying and get my degree so I can do what I really want to do with my life. But yeah, as I said, I have already figured that out so was a bit peeved that I seemed to be re-learning it. Anyway, I lasted three days and then I quit.

But I already had another job lined up, which I started today. I was looking forward to starting it, the set up reminded me alot of a job I had years ago which I really enjoyed. So today was the first day and it was really good, I think I am going to like it alot. So...good.

Oh phew, thank goodness for that ay Universe! I think we have things sorted now. I can't say too much until after Wednesday, and I know the last post was a bit dramatic, but all will be revealed in the next few days.

And in the meantime I hope to have some more knitting pics and maybe even some sewing.

And in other news, a wee baby girl was born tonight. In her own home, the midwife didn't make it in time for the big reveal but all went well and the news was on facebook shortly after, lol, I just love that. So very exciting. I have made her a little jacket and can't wait to give it to her but I have a bit of a chest infection at the moment so I will have to be patient and wait for my cooties to go before I meet the Worlds Newest Person.

So I had my first day at work today so this will be brief because I am knackered.

In summary: oh dear.

What the hell are you trying to tell me, Universe? What is the message? I need it loud and clear and very plain and obvious. You know I am not the sharpest tool in the shed.

So, what gives? Seriously.

I think I might sort of know. But why does everything have to be such torment? Is it because I don't pick the messages up till I am slapped in the face with them? Because if so, I think I have got it now. I really think I have got it. But I was already heading there, so wtf?

Here are the results of some of my garage sale activity in the past few weeks. I didn't go last week because I had my poxy accounting exam but I did go the week before and bought a little silver cake stand for $2. I thought it was the most adorable thing and can't wait to have little cakes and sandwiches on it next time I host a baby shower or whatever. And then yesterday I found a matching one, for even less than $2 because it was in with a whole pile of stuff that we paid $5 for. So now I have two adorable silver cake stands.

And the second picture is of a knitting book that I bought for $1. I have borrowed this book from the library at least five times, probably a couple more than that. I knitted the Elmo jumper out of it and consult it all the time for the stitch counts of sleeves and follow the instructions for the neckline. Last time I borrowed it I actually took a photo of the pattern on my phone so I would have it on hand, so I don't need that anymore. So that was an excellent score, very very happy with that.

Last week I had my last week at knitting group before I go back to work. We had a morning tea and it was very nice. Everyone said goodbye and good luck and I got flowers. I don't start my new job till next Wednesday but on Tuesday I have a study group in the morning and then I am going to go to a lecture with my friend Lucy, to see what the Business Law subject is like because I have to do it at some point. I am excited about starting work and a bit nervous, mostly nervous about fitting my life around business hours and making sure the kids are happy and looked after. I am going to give it my very best shot and if it works out that's great and if it doesn't then I will think of something else. You don't know till you try.

I had my Accounting exam this morning. It was pretty horrible actually. I had no sleep thanks to Callum, and my brain felt very foggy. I could tell it was foggy because I had trouble with simple equations and my recall was fuzzy. I am a bit pissed off about that actually because I did study quite hard and shouldn't have to deal with sleep deprivation as well as having to learn all that crap.

So tonight we are trialling a new system called "Callum sleeps in a different room from me and Steve deals with it". I don't care how he does it, I just want to sleep from one end of the night to the other, uninterrupted. Its been a long time. I am looking forward to it and I deserve it.

Yawn.

This is Maslows Hierarchy of Needs. I learnt about this years ago at TAFE and it really resonated with me. The reason I am writing about it now is because it has recently become very apparent to me that I am at the top level at the moment. I have a very strong urge to achieve something significant and be successful. I spent a lot of years in the purple section after a childhood that wasn't terrible but didn't send me off into the world fully equipped so I had a bit of catching up to do in that section and that takes time. Its nice to be above that now and having moved through the green section without really realising it, well sort of realising it I suppose. I think its the result of consistent contentment over the past six years. It's nice.

And now the red is calling me. I am very motivated in my studies. Haaaaate accounting, but I still study. I have an exam on Saturday and I have studied. Hard. I want to pass so I can move on to the next subject. I want to go to uni full time. That's probably do-able but at the moment I have my new job to think about. I still don't actually have a start date though, I had to go for a medical (drug and alcohol test!). I don't take drugs or drink alcohol so I am not too worried about the results of that.

I wish I had done this earlier. I wish I had the drive to succeed earlier, instead of being stuck in the lower segments. I feel ripped off a bit. But what can I do about that? Nothing I suppose. I accept it for what it is. Plenty of years in my life to go. I feel annoyed because I can see that the potential was always there, but I was stuck in the lower segments because of events that weren't of my own doing. Ah well. Here now.

Here now.

Well, I got a job today. So that's cool. I have another interview on Monday as well which I am still going to go to, just in case I like that job better (if I get it of course).