This is Maslows Hierarchy of Needs. I learnt about this years ago at TAFE and it really resonated with me. The reason I am writing about it now is because it has recently become very apparent to me that I am at the top level at the moment. I have a very strong urge to achieve something significant and be successful. I spent a lot of years in the purple section after a childhood that wasn't terrible but didn't send me off into the world fully equipped so I had a bit of catching up to do in that section and that takes time. Its nice to be above that now and having moved through the green section without really realising it, well sort of realising it I suppose. I think its the result of consistent contentment over the past six years. It's nice.

And now the red is calling me. I am very motivated in my studies. Haaaaate accounting, but I still study. I have an exam on Saturday and I have studied. Hard. I want to pass so I can move on to the next subject. I want to go to uni full time. That's probably do-able but at the moment I have my new job to think about. I still don't actually have a start date though, I had to go for a medical (drug and alcohol test!). I don't take drugs or drink alcohol so I am not too worried about the results of that.

I wish I had done this earlier. I wish I had the drive to succeed earlier, instead of being stuck in the lower segments. I feel ripped off a bit. But what can I do about that? Nothing I suppose. I accept it for what it is. Plenty of years in my life to go. I feel annoyed because I can see that the potential was always there, but I was stuck in the lower segments because of events that weren't of my own doing. Ah well. Here now.

Here now.