I haven't posted lately because I have been busy. Baden is at such a cute age, sometimes I just look at him with a stupid grin on my face. I just love him so much, I think everything he does is adorable.

It's a powerful force, a mother's love. A proper mother I mean, one who actually wants to be a mother and one who understands what its all about. I was watching a show on TV just before and it had all these people competing and the ones that had their mums there were always successful. As Baden grows up I want him to know that I am there for him, it's all about him, it's not about me. I am very curious to see what the result of him being so loved and supported is going to be. It's exciting because I know its going to be something wonderful, I just know it. I see it in other people. I want him to enjoy my company and feel safe. I want him to know I would never betray him, never gossip about him, never stab him in the back and never put him down to make myself look better. I am trying to be the mother I would have loved to have.

It makes me wonder what life would have been like for me in a parallel universe. But I try not to think about that too often, its not something that is within my control, but my own child is, so I will concentrate on this project I have been blessed with and see how it pans out.