Yeah, I know my blog kinda sucks at the moment. There is nothing much to write about. Everything is going great. Callum is beautiful, he's so lovely, I just love him to absolute bits and I am so glad we had him. I can't believe I took so long to be convinced to have another baby, I must have had rocks in my head!! I love having a baby in the house, he's SO gorgeous and little and he smells so nice and he's lovely and soft and fat and he smiles all the time. We all just love him and he fits right in. It's like he has always been here.

Motherhood the second time round is different than the first time round. Part of me thought it wouldn't be as good, you know, same old same old, but I think its great. Its not 'better', its just 'just as good, but different'. The newness of parenthood is replaced by the realisation that this baby is a whole different kettle of fish, in every way. The first time excitement is compensated with the lack of fraughtness, nothing's a problem, its aaaaall gooooood. Basically, everything that is missing is replaced with something just as good. Bar nothing. I am very happy.

In knitting news, the fishwife that runs the centre was there last week and I had to leave Callum in the creche. I was very unhappy about this and ended up making up some excuse to bring him into the room with me. I don't know what I am going to do about this. I love knitting group but I hate being away from my baby. There is a divider so I can't see the kids anymore. It was broken for ages, which was excellent, but they got it fixed. I went over there and the creche lady said he had been a bit unsettled so she had rocked him to sleep. hmm. She is a very nice lady, but I would prefer to rock my own baby to sleep. The irony is that when he is in the same room as me he just sleeps. When he can't hear my voice, he wakes up and needs to be resettled. Anyway. Annoying.

When we got home he was very unsettled for the rest of the day and didn't sleep well that night. None of which helped my motherguilt.

In other knitting news, I just have the hood to go on my Easter Show project. I still hate this project and if I have time I will probably knit something else. I have made the sleeves just the right length, which is just luck really since my model has to be bribed with chocolate to let me try things on him, he's such an ungrateful little shit!