I feel very stressed at the moment and I am not really sure why. I just feel like a big tight ball of stress, all wound up.

I am such a stress head and a perfectionist, but I am not very good at being a perfectionist unfortunately (not being perfect and all) and this stresses me out even more.

I am quite a methodical person in some areas and a complete airy-fairy ditz in others. I wonder what other people think of me?

I find it hard to listen to my own intuition when I am feeling so stressed because I can't weed out the neurosis from the intuition so I have to take stabs at it and I often get it wrong. But I can't listen to ALL the neurosis/intuition because it's just too much.

Today I got it wrong. I was going to do one thing a certain way and then berated myself for being so bloody pedantic all the time and a worry-wart, so I did it the "other" way - the way a non-worry-wart would do it.

It ended quite badly. Not as badly as it could have, it could have been absolutely catastrophic, but its bad enough, believe me. Turns out what I thought the non-worry-wart way consisted of was actually the F%^%&^ idiot way. *sigh*

I hate that.