Well...the uni thing is still undecided. I have the Academic Advisory session tomorrow and then I can enrol. I sort of decided to do one unit which is on Monday nights. But now I am wavering on that. I don't know if I want to go to uni at night, I sort of want to go during the day. It feels like a big commitment to go at night. During the day feels like less of a big deal.

But I don't want to leave Callum. I don't want him to go to the uni creche, I don't want him to go to family daycare, I don't want anyone to babysit him. Which is why we decided it would be easier for me to go at night, so he could be here at home with his Dad.

He FINALLY drank something out of a bottle during the week. He's still not all that good at it though, but it's a vast improvement. But I am just not ready to leave the little bollocks.

Hmm. I am very undecided. But definitely leaning towards saving the idea for another time. A time when I can go during the day and do more than one paper and not be feeling like my heart is being ripped open at the thought of my baby being somewhere that I am not.

Grrr.

And then of course we are thinking of having another baby. So that will throw another spanner in the works, so that's an argument on the side of going NOW and doing one paper at a time, chipping away at it slowly over the years that I am at home with babies, so then when I am ready I can go fulltime during the day and just 'finish off' rather than having to do a huge chunk of study.

BLARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

I dunno.